When God Starts Pulling You Out Of The "Old Verison Of You" - 07

Miranda Leigh: Hey friend and welcome back. I'm so excited that we are together again. Listen, this is gonna be a wild one today. God gave me this vision of what does it actually look like when God starts pulling you out of the old version of yourself? And I was like, ⁓ my goodness, this totally has to be the word for the day. So I want to invite you into this space. Holy Spirit gave me some wild downloads, guys. So I pray that you are ready for this, but let's talk about when God starts pulling you out of the old version of you. Okay. So hey, welcome back. I'm so excited that you guys are here today. And truly, wherever you are listening from right now, whether you're driving in your car, cleaning your house, forwarding the laundry, or just taking a couple minutes to yourself, hiding in the bathroom away from everybody, just to get a minute at peace. Listen, I'm just really glad that you are here. And I remember guys, I want this to feel less like a podcast and more just like a real conversation. Just like we're hanging out together, you know, so grab your favorite coffee, grab your favorite drink, and buckle up, guys, because this is gonna be wild. Okay. Let's go deep real quick. Because I think there's so many people that are in a weird transitional season right now, right? Like, do you guys feel it? Because I 100% feel it. You know, where you feel that you are personally are changing, but you can't fully explain it yet. Like, what is this feeling? What like what is this? What is it that I am Experiencing what is it that I'm feeling, you know? Because honestly, this can feel super uncomfortable. You know, we can pray for healing, we can pray for peace, we can pray for God to transform our lives, but nobody really talks about what happens when he actually starts doing it. Right? Because sometimes healing feels beautiful and sometimes it feels like grief. Sometimes growth feels exciting and sometimes it feels lonely. And I think a lot of us silently start wondering, why do I start like, why am I feeling so different? Why don't this things fit me anymore like they used to? You know, like why do I feel conviction when I go places that I used to go? You know, and it never bothered me before, but now it does, you know, or saying the words that I used to say, why does it not fit anymore? Why does it not make sense anymore? Why do I feel disconnected from the old version of myself? And friend, maybe it's not a bad thing, but maybe it's God pulling you out of survival mode and into alignment. Amen. Yes, I feel like this this is already hitting, right? Maybe he's healing parts of you that you've been operating from exhaustion or pressure, fear, performance or survival for years. Right? And today I just want us to have an honest conversation around that. Right, and as I told you guys this before, like this is God's podcast. Like this is this has nothing to do with me. This has everything to do with Holy Spirit wanting these words to get across to you. So I pray that wherever you're at today, you are just, you can just take a big breath, you can just exhale, you can just be right where your feet are. You can just open your heart, open your mind, and just let God in and let him do what he wants to do. So before any episode we ever do, any hangout that we ever have, I want to invite Holy Spirit in. And just setting the atmosphere, setting the tone for what we're about to get into. Because guys, this is going to be a wild, a wild podcast today. This is gonna be a wild hangout. And we're gonna talk about what happens when God starts pulling you out of the old version of yourself. Okay. So before we get into it, let's invite Holy Spirit in. Jesus, we invite you into this conversation today. Father, I pray over every single person listening right now, every woman carrying silent pressure, exhaustion, confusion, grief, anxiety, fear, or the weight of just trying to hold everything together. God, would you meet her right where she is right now? In the car, in her home, in the workplace, in the middle of motherhood, in the middle of transition, or truthfully in the middle of just becoming. Lord, I pray that this would not just be another hangout session together, God. But would it be a moment where she feels seen and safe and understood? And just remind her that she's not alone. Father, to the woman who feels like she's outgrowing the old version of herself and she doesn't fully understand why this season feels so uncomfortable. Would you just bring peace to her today? Remind her that the growth is not punishment. Remind her that healing is not failure. Remind her that you are not abandoning her. In the stretching, but you are transforming her. God, I pray today that you will help us release old mindsets, old survivor patterns, old pressure, old fear, old versions of ourselves, God, that no longer align with where you're taking us. Would you teach us how to live from peace instead of pressure? Teach us how to rest in you again. And Father, I pray this conversation will feel honest, healing, and full of your presence. Let every listener leave, feeling lighter, encouraged, challenged, and reminded that they were created for so much more. We love you. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen and amen. Let's go, guys. Listen, this is going to be great. Let's get into outgrowing old patterns. Okay. So, with that being said. Have you ever noticed that healing changes your tolerance? Like things that you once entertained start feeling heavy. That's what I was talking about earlier. You know, like conversations feel different. Certain environments drain you quicker. Chaos that once felt normal suddenly feels exhausting. And I can tell you that as a mom, ⁓ my goodness, I can sense it right off the bat when my kids just come out swinging with the attitude or come out swinging just with, you know, arguments or whatever. And I'm like, yo, like this is not working anymore. So I'm like, man, I can't believe it. I actually used to tolerate this stuff. And I think a lot of it is, I'm just gonna be a hundred percent honest with you, as a ⁓ Mom that was in survival mode for so many years, I'm looking back and I'm like, man, I feel like there's seasons where I did them a disservice, you know, and and I let them get away with things that maybe they shouldn't have because I honestly did not have the capacity to know how to even handle it properly. But now that I'm seeing it, now it's like you can course correct. So any parents that you feel like you are there as well, it is not too late. You are not too late. You can always course correct guys and you do not have to feel that you are a failure by genuinely just being human and learning, right? I think sometimes we confuse that with becoming distant or disconnected when we really are just growing. So have you ever felt that way, guys, where it's like, you know, you feel that you become distant to people or disconnected? That doesn't always mean it's a bad thing, guys, because I think sometimes whenever we get in those moments of quote unquote survival mode. You know, it can either be from a fact of God, I have no idea what's going on, so I'm just gonna retreat, or where we're going right now in this whole conversation of whenever we said about outgrowing old patterns, 'cause I have been there, where it's like I find myself becoming distant to people because I just wanna be closer to God. You know, I cleared out a space in my closet and I made that my my war room. And I don't know if you guys have like a war room or a prayer room or you know, a space in your home or a space in your car that just becomes your space that you can go to whenever you need to disconnect from the world and it's like nobody can bother me here. I can go and I can just be because I wanna go deeper with the Lord. And honestly, it's not that I'm wanting to isolate, but I just want to disconnect from reality. In the chaos around me, in the world, all the things that are vying for my attention. And I want to just be with Jesus, right? Guys, when this happens, your spirit starts craving peace differently. Your priorities start changing. And the things that once comforted your survival mode no longer will comfort who you're becoming. You know, and honestly, I feel like that transition can feel super lonely at times. Because not everybody grows with you at the same pace. Not everybody understands why your boundaries changed. Not everybody understands why you're why you're protecting your peace. You know, even more now than you ever have before. And honestly, guys, it's because growth will naturally shift what aligns with you. And I can even tell you this happened even whenever I was going deeper with my relationship, and I noticed Bill, my husband, you know what I mean? He'd be like. I would have different boundaries with conversations with us. You know, if we would just get overwhelmed and we would just start, you know, coming at each other, I would I would have a different boundary. ⁓ and I would see that that started shifting in him as well, which is awesome, guys. Cause this is it's not a bad thing. This just means that it's it's growth. Even my kids, if I'm gonna be reprimanding our children in a different way, of like, listen, you will not be disrespectful to this person, you know, if they're going crazy and you know being disrespectful to the siblings or me or Bill or anybody like that, right? They can see that I'm shifting my posture and I'm not being shaken anymore because I am no longer functioning at a survival mode. But they look at me now and understand when mom says something, this is what she means. Because I am so clear now versus being bogged down by the world. And again, if you guys have ever felt that like I welcome this. Like you are not alone. And you're gonna hear me reference often guys about like my kids or Bill because honestly this is the season that I'm in where I was in this busy season where it was just hustle and working ⁓ like twelve, thirteen hours a day and trying to manage, you know, ⁓ running a home and Making sure that my kids had what they needed and making sure that my my marriage was sustaining and we were still dating and finding time together, guys. And it was like, man, when you're feeling like you're burning the candle at both ends, like that's gonna like burn out very quickly. And I I just needed to reshift and realign. And I will tell you, it's so much better on the side where you are no longer stressing about things every single day and understanding that's just that's like a foothold, friends. Like the enemy can get you by you being exhausted, by you being run down, feeling over. overwhelmed, like it's basically just in opening the door and inviting him in, right? And I want to ask you guys before we go any deeper, have you ever felt like your spirit outgrew something before your life physically has changed? Or like what no longer in your life feels aligned anymore? and I want you to actually answer that out loud. Like what no longer feels aligned anymore, guys? I will even say for me, you know, just binging Netflix or d finding a way just to mind numb in the evening after I was exhausted, I would find like a series and I would just, you know, get on Netflix or whatever and just mind numb. And I was like, dude, this isn't even fueling my spirit anymore. What the heck is going on? And now I find myself in the evenings after the kids go down. I found there's a couple people that I love to listen to on YouTube. And if you guys ever want recommendations, absolutely DM me and I will send them over to you. Of Either watchmen or prophetic voices that are, you know, really just absolutely influential in this season. And I feel like they are giving sound doctrine, they are giving sound advice, they are giving Bible, right? And they they're just giving truth. And that is now what I'm fueling myself with. As I need to decompress, I'm like, listen, I don't want to decompress up anything of this world. Because again, I feel like that's just opening up this is what my opinion, right? Like opening up the door for the enemy just to come in. And as I'm getting ready to get rested and to go to sleep and recharge, I want my mind to be full of the truth. Like I don't wanna be fearful or confused or whatever. So that's just me. Right? So that is what I left back in the past, right? It no longer feels a line anymore for me just to bring like basically like basically numb out my brain to just decompress from the day, right? And I think that that's one of the hardest parts of trans like transformation is realizing that you can't go back to the old versions of yourself once God opens your eyes. Amen. Amen. So let's talk about what happens when survival mode made us think that this was normal. You know, I think that so many women become strong because they had no other option. We learned how to survive, we learned how to carry everything, we learned how to keep showing up exhausted. We learned how to pour into everybody else while ignoring ourselves. And eventually survival mode starts to feel normal, you guys. Burnout becomes normal, anxiety becomes normal, functioning exhausted becomes normal, being mentally over. Overloaded becomes normal. You know, and honestly, friend, I think a lot of women don't even realize how tired they are until they finally slow down. And let me tell you, that is so accurate. Where I felt like I could never get enough sleep. You know, once I started slowing down, I'm like, why can I not catch up with this? Like, what the heck is going on? And then I felt like this conviction from Holy Spirit that it's like, it's almost like you're making up for lost time per se. Whereas like I'm not wanna wanting to sleep the day away, but you know what I mean? Like it's okay to sleep in an extra thirty minutes or an extra hour if you're able to, or to go to bed earlier. or honestly, this is my favorite thing to do is taking a nap in the afternoon if I need like a recharge. Listen, because for so many years I've been going so hard and did not realize what that cutoff even looked like. And I'm like, man, looking back now. And just even thinking of how hard I went, it makes me exhausted thinking about it. Like, do you guys feel that too? You know, I used to feel so guilty for resting or guilty slowing down, guilty for not constantly producing. And honestly, you guys, it's because when's when you are in survival mode for so many years, your nervous system starts believing that chaos is home. Let's just keep it real. You know, and listen, this is something I want you guys to just really pause with for a moment, but just because you learned how to carry it doesn't mean that you were meant to. I'm going to repeat that so it hits. Turn the volume up if you need to hear this. Or just stop doing what you were doing to really listen in, okay? Just because you learned how to carry it doesn't mean you were meant to. Period. That is like a full statement right there. That is a full sentence. Point blank period. It doesn't mean that you were meant to, guys. And I know for me personally, motherhood, leadership, business, marriage, all of those things expose areas where I realized, you know, like wow, I've really been functioning in pressure for so long that I forgot what peace even felt like. And I think so many women listening can relate to that, guys. So let me ask you, do you feel like you are truly living right now? What have you normalized, guys, that is actually exhausting you? Say these things out loud. Say your answer out loud so you can actually hear it and acknowledge it. What are you carrying that God never asked you to carry alone? Mine was truthfully the weight of my family. On that last one, that just hit me and I just felt like that I needed to share that with you guys is carrying the weight of my family alone. This is why God gave me a husband to be able to delegate and to be able to have us do this together and to not have it be that I'm trying to hold everything together and carrying everything together. That's just insane to think that that is something that you could actually even do. Let's just be real. So Guys, those questions are hard, but they're so good. And I love asking these questions and I'm gonna probably do it if this is what Holy Spirit has for me to do in most every hangout that we have. Because like when putting this together, guys, I feel like it challenges me to even look at myself now and it's like what am I still hanging on to? Like how am I normalizing anything right now in this season season that's exhausting me? You know what I mean? Fill in the blank. And I'm like, so the answers might be different in this season than what it was in last. But listen, if we don't stay focused on the things that we need to focus on every single day, it can be very easy to get back to that stage of burnout or over exhaust you exhausting yourself or feeling that little bit of Anxiety again, but remember like I mentioned, you know, a few moments ago, once God opens your eyes to this, you guys, you can't go back. Like once he opened my eyes to how hard I was actually going, I was like, I never want to go back in that space again. And you know, I just want us to be real about whenever we have these conversations and when you're when I'm asking these questions, I really want you guys to dig dig your heels in and get real with yourself. Like an answer it truthfully because remember, when we say that, whenever we answer these questions, this is what's gonna set you free, you guys. There's something about listening to people, like listening to somebody and just having them talk at you. Or it's what Holy Spirit, I feel like He's absolutely given me for this hangout with us is to have us talk with each other and grow together. Right? So this is why I'm gonna challenge you in these hangouts because I want you to grow. I want you to be everything that God has called for you to be. And even if this, you know, this moment, this hangout gives you that one little, you know, another toll in your tool belt, then it was all worth it, right? So I love you guys. I'm so excited that you are doing this work, you are doing hard things, and you should. Be so proud of yourself. So let's talk about what happens like when we enter this space, and then you start grieving the old you. You know, because honestly, I think that this might be the hardest part of healing. Because sometimes healing involves grief, not because we miss the pain, but because we're saying goodbye to the old version of ourselves that learned how to survive through it. You know, and that can feel super emotional. Because maybe being hard protected you once. Maybe controlling everything made you feel safe. Maybe overworking became your coping mechanism. Maybe people pleasing kept you from rejection. I was totally there in that one. Wow, that's that's a really that's a really good one. I'm just gonna repeat that because I feel like there's a lot of us that battle with that. People pleasing could have kept you from rejection. Thank you, God, for healing. That's all I gotta say. Guys, maybe even shutting down emotionally felt safer than vulnerability. You know, and even though those patterns may not be healthy, they still become familiar. So when God starts healing you, it can almost feel like, you know, who am I without these survival habits? So lean into this one, guys, because this is another one, okay? This is another one that I really want you to listen to. Sometimes becoming who God called you to be requires grieving, whose survival mode taught you to become. One more time. Sometimes becoming who God called you to be requires grieving, whose survival mode taught you to become. And that is definitely another one to really process with of like, wow, he's absolutely called me higher and I need to release who the survival version of myself said that I should have become, versus being known as my identity of being a child of God, you know, a daughter of a king and walking like that and honoring myself like that, right? So do you feel the same way? So I want to ask you guys, who did you become just to survive? I was like the fix-it person. I was like the one woman that wanted to heal and run to everybody's rescue and help them heal, right? What version of yourself is God asking you to release? Mine was the control, you guys? Not even the co control of like always wanting to be right, but the control of like, well, if I'm controlling it then no one can hurt me or etcetera. You know what I mean? You fill in the blank. Like I'm sure that you guys can feel the same way, you know, or put something in that blank. There, you know what mean? But that version for me was so so incredible whenever God's like, Will you give it to me? Will you let me control your life? Will you let me control the outcome? And trust me with this. And another one with that was like, trust him with my finances. Because for so long I felt like I needed to be the one. Because I was working so much and I was, you know, doing very well with my job that it was like I felt like there was this pressure of bringing in a certain amount for our lifestyle to be what it was, right? And God's like, Will you give this to me? Will you trust the fact that I'm gonna be a good father and I'm gonna give you the resources and I'm gonna give you everything so you don't have to do it on your own. Guys, finally, what would your life look like if you stopped trying to control everything? What would it look like? Would you have more peace? Would you have more joy? Because that one thing I can promise you is whenever you release that, that anxiety will be gone. That pressure, like on your chest, in those moments where it's even like hard to take a super deep breath, like that would be gone. I can promise you that because I was there as well. You know? think that there's so many women that are secretly feeling so exhausted guys by trying to hold everything together all the time. And maybe healing looks finally like admitting that I don't want to live pressured anymore. And that is a really beautiful thing to say. And I feel like truthfully, guys, whenever we're able to say statements like, I don't want to live pressured anymore, it's almost just saying, God, would you come in and would you release this? Like, he wants us to freely talk to him, you guys. He wants us to freely have dialogue, just like you and I, like what we're doing right now, guys. Just like we're sitting here as friends, that's exactly what God is calling for us to do with him as well. And honestly, we're not going to know that he is going to be good. He's gonna be a man of his word if we don't have a relationship with him. It's like, wow, like you say that you can do all this stuff, God, but it's like, but will you do it for me? It's like, but will you trust him? But will you do more than act like he's a genie in a bottle and just only talk to him whenever you need something? You know? Like, let's just be real, you guys. Because I think the more that we're willing to listen to him and be attuned, like tuning our ear. And our are like so into, God, what do you want me to do today? Guys, I'm telling you, I'm almost certain that I've said this before, but if not, listen up. Every day before I get up and specifically before I like drive off to take the kids to school, I say, God, what do you want to do for the day? Like what do you want my day to look like? How do you want to move today? Who are the people that you want me to talk to today? And the reason I specifically say that, guys, is because I'm I'm looking for instruction. Because listen, if Miranda's out here just trying to do it, she's she could go rogue. Okay. Like I could totally go off course from what my mission is for the day. So when I can invite Holy Spirit in and I'm like, God, what do you want to do today? How do you want to move today? What does this look like today? Guys, it is not allowing for me to feel pressured anymore. Because I'm not the one that has to figure this stuff out. When I'm letting space in for God to do what he wants to do, that's whenever the downloads will come, the words will come, the peace will come, and the direction comes. I can promise you that. Guys, finally, before we wrap this thing up, I want you to know something. No matter what you were going through, God is not punishing you. Okay? And I feel so strongly to say this because I feel like somebody needs this reminder today. Just because this season feels so uncomfortable, it does not mean that God has abandoned you. Sometimes he's pruning. ⁓ and that one's a hard one. Man, that is so hard where it's like, God, what are you doing? I feel like you're taking everything from me. What are you doing? Guys, he could just be pruning you. Okay. Sometimes he's protecting you. Sometimes he's blocking you and shielding you from allowing the old people that you used to connect with to come back or the old opportunities that you've had to come back. It's almost like I just feel like there's a shield around us where it's like, he's like, Nope, she's mine. I'm gonna protect you And that means like those comforting moments, those comforting things. I talked to you guys about Netflix even before. I'm like, dude, there's so many other things now that I could be doing with my time. Not that I don't love a good Netflix series, okay? I'm not even here to say anything about that. I'm just keeping it real with you guys. I think that's the way that he protects my mind and says that, no, I don't want you to w watch this today. I want you to watch this. Here's a word that I want you to hear. Here's a here's, you know, another podcast that I really want you to listen into and just get wisdom from this person. You know, sometimes he's removing things that can't come with you into this next season, guys. And that is not a bad thing. If anything, that is a blessing. We know we might not understand it right yet, guys, but I can promise you that it is all gonna make sense. You know, I think that we panic whenever things shift because we immediately assume that loss means failure. But I can promise you guys one thing, okay? I believe that this season is preparation instead of punishment. And I want you to ask yourself that. Like, what if this pressure that I'm feeling, or what if this, you know, this shift that I'm feeling isn't isn't punishment, but it could be preparation. I think a lot of it is how are we willing to look at this situation? Guys, what if God is rebuilding your foundation? What if he's teaching you peace, patience, joy, self-control? I mean, name the fruits of the spirit. Let's go. You know what I mean? Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Like, come on, you guys. What if he's teaching you all of that? Or one of those at a time? What if he is stopping you so you can learn? And lean in to what it is to stop living under constant pressure. Like what if he's intentionally stopping you in your tracks to teach you how to stop living in constant pressure? What if? ⁓ You know, and I I really want to encourage you with these two questions because these might feel hard, but guys, remember the more honest you are, the more healing that can begin to happen. Let me ask you, what if this season is transforming you instead of breaking you? And I can promise you that's exactly what it did for me. And now I'm looking at it and I'm like, God, thank you that I finally gave up control of my business and my finances, my resources, my family. My kids well-being, my husband, and the next opportunity for his job. Like, what if I stopped just worrying about all that and I allowed for him to transform me? It wasn't breaking me, you guys. It was truly making me into everything that he's called for me to be in this season. And you know who I am in this season might become someone different for next season, and that's okay. But what if this season is truly transforming you instead of breaking you? And finally, what are you struggling to release because it all feels so familiar? What are you struggling to release? And up until lately, guys, it was my finances. Because truthfully, I was like, Lord, but if I step away from the studio, what's gonna happen financially? He's like, Are you gonna trust me? And let me tell you something, friends. He has provided more than every single month, okay? And I'm just grateful for it. It might not be an excess and or wild overflow, but it is more than me going to the studio and stressing. Okay. It's more than me. It's like if I wanna keep the kids at home for a day and just spend a day with them, I don't have to feel bad. But I'm not releasing, you know, I'm not releasing it for any other reason other than it w it was it was an idol in my life at one point in time. I'm just keeping it real. Because I felt like, you know, the amount of success that you had equated to the amount of money that was in your bank account. But I realized, but if you're working all the time, you have no time to spend it. Not even that, friends, but like, when the heck are you gonna make you know, space to actually go do something for fun? Because you're always used to serving other people. Now this is what I'm talking about for me as being Being in the a trade. Okay, some people are salary and whatever, but it's like if I don't work, I don't get paid. So that's why God taught me in this season how to become creative with releasing and releasing things that no longer serve me, and I can make income by releasing it. Right? Ugh guys, this was a heavy one, but let me tell you something. If this season feels like stretching, Emotion like if it feels like to you that it is stretching you, it feels emotional or unfamiliar or uncomfortable. Maybe it's because God is gently pulling you out of the old version of you, not to shame you, not to punish you, but to free you. And I want to tell you something, guys. You are not behind, you're not failing, and you are not broken because the growth feels uncomfortable. Finally, sometimes healing feels super messy before it feels beautiful. Sometimes feel g sometimes growth feels like grief before it becomes freedom. And let me tell you something. When that moment comes of what you understand that freedom truly feels like, it's not just financial success. It could be success in a way of, wow, like I get to sleep in a little bit longer. I get to go do something midday on a Tuesday that I might not have ever got to do because I was trading so much of my time for money. Is one of my favorite ones right there. Sometimes growth feels like grief before it feels like freedom. And if that is where you're at right now, just know on the other side of that moment that you're feeling, guys, freedom is waiting for you. And I can tell you that because I am a walking testimony of that right now, right here, right now. And I am so grateful for that. And I believe that for you as well. So that was a wild one today, guys, right? I'm just so excited for you. I am so pumped for everything that God has for you. I'm so expectant. And before we head out, I just want to close all of this with prayer because, again, we're doing a lot of work here. This is like emotional work, like inner healing work, and I think it's so awesome. but we never want to leave this door open. Because that's again, like I mentioned before, this is where the enemy can come in and he just needs a foothold, guys, to be able to get in and d to derail the work that was done today. So Jesus, I pray over every single woman listening today. Meet her in the middle of becoming everything that you've called for her to be. Bring peace to the places in her life that feel stretched and uncertain. God, would you heal the parts of her that learn survival instead of safety? Would you give her strength to release the old mindsets, old habits, the old versions of herself that no longer align with where you were taking her? And remind her that she is not abandoned in this season, but she is becoming transformed in Jesus' name. Amen. Amen. I love it. And I hope that this blessed you today. I just want to say thank you so much for being here with me today, guys. Truthfully. And if this hangout session encouraged you, challenged you, or made you feel a little less alone, would you share it with somebody that you love? Would you share it with them, guys? Because I believe on the other side of our honesty for ourselves can be healing for other people. And you never know that they could just be praying for something just like this. So if you if if that lands with you and somebody pops into your heart or your mind right now, would you share it with them? And remember, guys, you were never created just to survive life. You're made for so much more. God has so many amazing things for you, and I am so excited to hear what it looks like for you. Remember, send me some DMs. Let me know how this encouraged you or inspired you today. I want to walk through this with you. I'm excited for everything that God has for you guys. And I truly believe that the best truly is yet to come. I love you guys so much. Talk to you soon.